The car accident was almost 3 months ago ( next week) and i am in worst shape now than I was then. I guess i can look at it on a positive note, at least i wasn't feeling anywhere near this on my weddng day. Right now, I am just so frustrated, and since I can't do anything else (really, this all i can do) i am going to bitch and moan. My dear hubby has even noticed that i am not 100% my self. I think that the onset of summer has spread the slumpy dump. It's my favorite time of year, time for float trips, lounging at the pool and fun with friends, and family, and just being outside--and i am just sitting here moping. Yep, Debbie Downer, I am.
I refuse to get in a swimsuit because i have put on at least 15 pounds since the wedding, and am now at my highest weight EVER. What's worse is that I can't do anything about it. i worked out in the yard this weekend, and this morning i woke up not able to get out of bed, so bad that i didn't go into work. When i first met with my chiro, I was excited at first when he told me 4-6 weeks but now it seems forever away. Especially during this season of swimsuits and shorts. Sometimes, i feel like it's never going to happen. it's hard ya know, when you are used to being so busy, and so active. i feel like an 90 year old woman in this 29 year old body. lol
Well, i was doing pretty well since i was given my 4-6 week hallelujah plan (time till i'll be healed) until the past couple of weeks. Last week. I went to the gym to sit in the sauna, to alleviate some of the pain. It felt so good to be in there sweating, really good, but i left there more upset then i already was. There I was, at the gym surrounded by people who are in shape, or trying to get there and i was near tears. I used to love working out, and love how i felt when i did it. This weekend we lounged at the pool, and that night i was sore yet again YES just from laying out at the pool. Here i am, it's my favorite time of year, and I can't do anything.
I could get angry but what use does that do? Accidents happen. Life happens. Shit happens--and we all come out fine in the end....righto? Sorry for being such a debbie downer but man, i just want to enjoy life again. I'm thinking good thoughts though, next week will be better. I think i over extended my self this weekend. In the meantime, lets have some good laughs.
Some E Eards are one of my favorite things to send to random ppl and always cheers everyone up....
Still in the 4th of July spirit....This one is for Blake.