Thursday, April 30, 2009

13 weeks and growing.....

Time is flying (well, today it def does not feel that way) but I am already 13 weeks!

Fingerprints have formed on your baby's tiny fingertips, her veins and organs are clearly visible through her still-thin skin, and her body is starting to catch up with her head — which makes up just a third of her body size now. If you're having a girl, she now has more than 2 million eggs in her ovaries. Your baby is almost 3 inches long (the size of a medium shrimp) and weighs nearly an ounce.

I am amazed at how fast this baby is growing. It looks more like a baby now, and less like an alien! I thought that the morning sickness was gone, so I quit taking all the meds. Boy, was I wrong! My energy levels are picking up a little, but our crappy rainy, dreary weather isn't helping.

I have started to pop a little. I have had two people at work tell me that I am looking preggo. Thankfully, I am because that could have been awkward! I am ready to look pregnant and not just like I ate too much!

I have to tell you that as excited as I am, I do get days where I am totally freaking out. Like the other day, a coworker brought in her new tiny baby (I mean tiny, he was 6 weeks and like 7 pounds!) I looked at that baby and someone goes, here you hold him. My legs got all wobbly and I started sweating. He was just so tiny, and to think in less than 6 months, I will have my own! It's exciting but so scary! Yesterday, I got free sample of diapers in the mail! They were so cute, and so tiny, but then again, an "OMG, this is real" small attack happened.

I know all those fears will go away once I hold him/her for the first time. Speaking of hims and hers.....I cannot wait to know! A friend of ours just found out they are having a girl! I can't wait to know....I am dying of suspense. Really, I am. You should see me :)

Wednesday, April 29, 2009

ABC game!

Jen over at Eggs Over Medium, gave me the Letter R to play with!
Here are some of my favorite things that start with the letter ARRRRR.......Reading: I loves me a good book. I haven't had time lately with this stupid thing call school and work but the last set of books I read was about the most loved vampire.....
Nothing is better than a good book and good wine....which brings me to

Red red wine....oh how i yearn for your sweet taste on my lips.....
ok sorry but its one of the things i miss most right now.

Relaxation (it's better when paired with Rest which I can't seem to get enough of!)
It's the best when paired with red wine and a good book! :) I was hoping we were going to get to take a second honeymoon, due to the fact that our first one was not all that we had expected (if you call 2nd degree burns fun, lol) but we must save time for maternity leave!
Oh snap! Maybe next year?
Reality TV: American Idol, The Bachelor, um, Rock of Love. Yes. I know.
I've started watching a new one called Tough Love. It's fantastic!

Roads less traveled. I love traveling. Love the beach, love vacations. I live for them! I love visiting new places....especially when there is a beach involved. Did I mention I love the beach?

This one is a stretch and a two parter: Real Flowers--mostly peonies!

Really bright colors...I love nothing more than a pop of color. Pink and green, of course!

Redo, Redecorate. Whatever you want to call it. Our house looked like it was stuck in 1982 when we bought it. Down the the ugly brown walls accented with the blue flowered wallpaper. I love to see before and afters......and love to see our hard work pay off!
Last but not least, in Google Reader. Sorry, no pic (laziness kicked it) It lets me stay all informed and stuff. :) Really, how could I keep up with the gazillions of blogs I read without it? (OK, not gazillions but there is a lot!)
Anyone else wanna play? If so, leave me a comment and I'll give you a letter to play along!

Thursday, April 23, 2009

Why we do the things we do.

Before that pregnancy test was even dry, I was already overcome with emotions. I looked down at the 4 tests, I looked down to see dark glaring double lines....I thought, 'oh my god, you're pregnant! Suddenly the emotions permeated through my body. Happiness, giddiness, excitement, nervousness.....and the overwhelming sense of worry.

I started over analyzing every symptom, every twinge, and ever single thing happening to my body. I scoured websites, read books, and made the mistake of reading message boards that were filled with the words that I feared most. Miscarriage. (one note of caution for those preggo or planning on it--stay AWAY from the internets. They can lead you to very scary places, lol!)

Cramps came and went. I freaked out a bit, and then learned that they are normal in early pregnancy (hey, who knew!) Nausea came and went (mostly and I was swearing to anyone that this was going to be our one and only child!

Finally the day came and it was time for the first ultrasound. It was going to be full of happy memories, or a painful voyage. As the ultrasound tech guided the wand around, I looked at the screen and there it was. A little blob. A cute little blob (Personally, I think it is the cutest blob ever but I might be a bit biased.) Then, I saw the most magical and miraculous wonder I have ever set my eyes upon. The little flutter of our baby's heartbeat. She slowly turned a knob and I felt my eyes welt up. There it was in all of its glory. The most amazing sound my ears have ever heard (and man, I have heard some good things in my life.)
I heard the heartbeat. I sat there misty eyed, and amazed.

I felt good.

My baby was safe.

That reassurance comes and goes. I got to hear that sweet swoosh again on Monday, and again, it was a sound of relief. What that ultrasound tech said to me that first day has stuck with me. Through every twinge, and through ever tiny sense of worry, what she said echo’s in my mind.

Worrying is part of being a mother.

She is right. From that moment, I saw those two lines (on a total of 7 different tests. yes, 7) I was instantly a mom. In a matter of minutes, we became parents. Carrying this baby is just the beginning. We have a whole lives of worry ahead. With that come the joys and happiness. I can't wait to suck it all in!

Wednesday, April 22, 2009

Eight is enough!

I've been tagged by Emily!

Here's how 8 things works:
Mention the person that tagged you.
Complete the lists of 8's
Tag 8 friends
Go tell them you tagged them.

8 Things I Am Looking Forward To...
1. The end of this semester. I have a feeling it might be the last in a while, darn!
2. The weekend
3. Going to my back doc in two weeks!
4. Finding out what this nugget has between the legs ;)
5. Our first anniversary next weekend!
6. The animals greeting me when I come in the door
7. My house being clean
8. Last but not least.....meeting the little nugget.

8 Things I Did Yesterday...
1. Drove to work and had a man really piss me off so much that i wrote his license plate down. What am I going to do with it? Hell, I don't even know. All i know was he made me mad!
2. Had a salad at Friday's.
3. Sat in a worskhop on the new FMLA laws.
4. Dry heaved for a bit. :)
5. Went to Target
6. Thought about doing homework, and then decided against it!
7. Watched American Idol and Lost
8. Blissful interuppted sleep

8 Things I Wish I Could Do...
1. Miracously wake up skinny
2. Move to the beach/travel around the world
3. Stay home with the baby....till he/she is like 20 :)
4. Add onto our house. (I'm thinking bigger kitchen, anyone?)
5. Save all the homeless animals of the world--I have to copy Emily on this one!
6. Spend more time with people I care about
7. Grow money on trees.
8. Be paid more for what I do. Social work and any of job that works with kids just doesn't get paid nearly enough.

8 Shows I Enjoy...
1. The Office
2. Grey's Anatomy
3. Lost
4. Hero's
5. One Tree Hill (yes, I know...)
6. Law and Order SVU
7. Dexter/Weeds (I know i cheated but they both are on the same channel and the seasons are short!)
8. Nip Tuck

8 People I Tag...
ALL of you! I'm along!

Q and A....and a little rant

Ever since we have spilled the beans about our little bean, we have been asked 6,000 questions. The most asked question so far is: Are you going to find out the sex?
My response is usually: Hell, freaking, YES! I am too much of a planner, and like to know what to expect.

Are you going to have a natural birth?
My response: you mean without drugs? Um, hell freaking, no. I considered it, and the more and more i thought about it, I am too much of a worrier, and add in the back issues and I just can't imagine doing it without some kind of medicinal help, lol. The back issue is one of my biggest concerns right now because it has been really bothering me lately and I keep having these crazy thoughts that pregnancy/labor is going to make it unbearable for me. The accident is now officially something that happened last year, and something i think about everyday. I can't get into my awesome back doc for another 3 weeks so I'm in waiting limbo now. So, no natural birth for me. I do want to prevent inducing labor, and prevent a c-section anyway i can though.

Do you have any names picked out?
My response: No, we could hardly name our are we suppposed to name a human?Blake thinks that any name I pick is stupid, and/or is a last name for a first name. He apparently thinks that is dumb. I hope we can eventually agree on one but I don't doubt that it will be a last minute thing (like, hey honey, look what i just did....yeah, i just pushed out a giant human through there--yes, through, now you like that name. Ok, great.)

Was this baby planned?
Me: First of all, people are asking me if I planned to have a sexual encounter that resulted in a baby? No, we didn't if you want to know that bad. We planned on waiting till this summer, and boom, here we are. Does it make us less excited and less in love with this baby? Hells, freaking NO!

Are you excited?
Me: Of course! While I am not only excited, I am smitten with this little nugget. I am of course nervous about it all. Am I nervous about being a good mom? No. I've got that stuff down, i think, lol. Am I nervous about juggling this new addition into our lives? Yes! I am worried about leaving my child with someone else (i had a hard time leaving my animals when we first got them, lol.) Hopefully, we can work something out and find a good caregiver for our bambino! So, to answer another question: NO, i am not quitting my job. I would love to be a stay at home mom, but i don't think it's in the cards for us right now.

I learned that telling people you are having a baby, it somehow entitles them to give you advice, or to criticize you. I have had people tell me what to eat, and what i should be drinking. I have had a person tell me after announcing my pregnancy to coworkers that I should know that a certain person that I talk to maybe once a blue moon to is having problems getting pregnant, and she was upset at my announcement. My heart goes out to her, and I wouldn't wish that on my worst enemy. Who was I to know? Should I have refrained from my announcement? No. Was it her business to tell me this? Hell, no.

I have a few others say some things and it just is annoying!!! I am eating healthy (when nausea allows, lol) and drinking my gallons of water (again, when nausea allows) It's my baby, and my body, who the hell are these people to tell me what I should do with it?

Rant over.

The most annoying thing ever to say to a pregnant lady is: Oh, is it twins?

Why? Do I LOOK like a bloated blubbery whale? Because that is what you are insinuating.

Saturday, April 18, 2009

Nonsense, sleepiness, and unibrows

That is me right now. A ball of laziness. I am finding it hard to even answer my damn phone... laundry is piled up and waiting for me (we are going on two weeks here ladies!), the house looks like a monsoon hit, and don't even mention my appearance. I think my eyebrows have fused into the unsightly caterpillar like uni-brow. Yes, I am serious. I can't even tell you the last time I've had a hair cut......or wait..when is the last time I have showered? Just kidding on the last one....I think.

I have good intentions to get things done, and then I go to do them, and I just find something else to do (like sit here and blog.....priorities?) I'll be 12 weeks next week, so I am waiting for a burst of energy to come. I guess my ass will remain on this couch until this happens because I have officially turned into a sack of laziness. At least I have a good excuse. I do have to say that his past week has ALMOST been morning sickness free! Instead i have been more tired, and a bit dizzy! I'll take those over ms anyday!

I look around the house, and I am making lists in my head of what I need to do, what I want to do, and what I don't like. The lists are out of control. Like my dear green room, I still need curtains. Yes, every morning at the butt crack of dawn the bright sun wakes me up and still have not made time to buy curtains. I do have to say this is something that is going to get done soon because I might snap if I continue to be woke up.....

I am anxiously counting down the weeks--1 week and 3 days till I'm officially out of the first trimester (did you know it doesn't officially end until the end of 13 weeks? I do know), and I have 3 more weeks of school left! I am ready for both! Once school is out, I feel like I can actually concentrate on everything else! Get this, our FIRST anniversary is coming up too. I swear that was the fastest year of my life.

Easter was good, short but good. The baby even got some gifts! My SIL got us a sweet little baby basket and my lovely husband went to look at the onesie, and held it upside down. Let's just hope he doesn't do that to the baby that goes in it!

Remember this post about my damn table? Well, I finally spoke to someone in corporate who was a little bit snotty. She tells me that the pictures demonstrate that it is not manufactures defect, that it is from the way WE USE IT? WTF? Who would have thought that eating on table is wrong? What made me more upset was i asked to see the pictures that they took (i wasn't there, blake was...) and she refused stating it was 'company property.' She told me that i could send her my pictures though.

I refused to do that because i find it to be a waste of my time and filed a report the the BBB. She came back and rebutted by saying that she was going to allow me to send her pictures, but I have yet to follow through. The BBB asked if I was happy with that response? No effing way. All i want is the table replaced, or our money refunded. The thing that makes me so mad is that the warranty states that it would cover something to this effect.

Yep. Here is my table from my phone.
We will see what happens. Blake joked we needed to called Elliot from channel two (he is the You Paid for It guy, lol.) We need a new table, and I refuse to buy one since we JUST bought this one this fall.

Life can be so frustrating sometimes!!!

Wednesday, April 8, 2009

10 weeks!

I already feel like i have been preggo forever. Here's what is going on with our nugget right now:

Though he's barely the size of a kumquat — a little over an inch or so long, crown to bottom — and weighs less than a quarter of an ounce, your baby has now completed the most critical portion of his development. This is the beginning of the so-called fetal period, a time when the tissues and organs in his body rapidly grow and mature.He's swallowing fluid and kicking up a storm. Vital organs — including his kidneys, intestines, brain, and liver (now making red blood cells in place of the disappearing yolk sac) — are in place and starting to function, though they'll continue to develop throughout your pregnancy.If you could take a peek inside your womb, you'd spot minute details, like tiny nails forming on fingers and toes (no more webbing) and peach-fuzz hair beginning to grow on tender skin.In other developments: Your baby's limbs can bend now. His hands are flexed at the wrist and meet over his heart, and his feet may be long enough to meet in front of his body. The outline of his spine is clearly visible through translucent skin, and spinal nerves are beginning to stretch out from his spinal cord. Your baby's forehead temporarily bulges with his developing brain and sits very high on his head, which measures half the length of his body. From crown to rump, he's about 1 1/4 inches long. In the coming weeks, your baby will again double in size — to nearly 3 inches.

See Blake, I did grow fingers while you were saying that I wasn't do ANYTHING anymore. Told you so!

Monday, April 6, 2009

I wish today were a Funday. Not just another Manic Monday

Today sucks. I'll be blunt and come out and say it right off the bat. I'll give you several reasons. Reason numero uno? It freaking is crappy out. It snowed this morning. Yes, it snowed it April. On opening day. I hate you mother nature.
#2 Oh, let's call it the fact that i think my teacher hates me. She is making me 'teach' the class today and all I wanna do is curl in the fetal position and go night-night. I would even settle for sleeping at my desk with my snuggie! That brings me to #3--- I felt great Thursday-Sunday. Then today, the day I need to feel good....I want to curl in a ball and die. I will tell you that yesterday, i took full advantage and got me some Steak N' Shake and boy was it good.

So, today is not a funday. I wish is were Sunday. Nope, sorry i take that back, I wish it were Friday, and the mood was right. TGIF!

On a positive note, thanks for all the kind words and comments about our little nugget. It is nice to see some new commenters coming out of lurk-dom. I have to say that the best comment award goes to Emily! "Especially when you commented about men not being able to aim a penis...haha he did manage to get you preggers!"

Thanks for the laugh--and if anyone figures out how to teach men to pee IN the toilet, let me know!

My darling husband told me the other day, that i was loosing weight. (Well, go figure when you go from eating everything in sight to not eating much at all) I really liked him at that moment until he said, ''Well, your legs and butt have gotten smaller, but your belly's getting bigger. Maybe your head just looks smaller because your body's getting bigger?

He thought he was being funny. He learned that it was indeed not.

On yet another random note, I need to post something about our green room! It's no where near done. I still am in search of a duvet cover i love. That damn one from West Elm is on back order until May! I put all this off because it well, was the last thing on my mind but its going to be my first priority when i get back to normal. If that ever happens.

Yet more randoms: This weekend is EASTER? Where have I been? I had no idea.....
What are your plans for Easter weekend?

Wednesday, April 1, 2009

Wedding Outtakes!

i am a slacker and have yet to post any wedding pics. I had a hard time sizing them so i need to figure out something that works to not make the us look distorted. Any ideas let me know! I went ahead an resized them myself but some just don't look right to me. I also published and unpublished this post several times to make sure nothing was cut off so i apologize if you have seen this 499 times.

I was looking at them recently and these are the ones that make me laugh. .

Like this one.....

I obviously dance to my own tune......

I must be dumping it like a truck.....what? New dance move maybe?

One of the best before and afters......EVER!

This one cracks me up! These 'balls' i used in our centerpieces were a hit, (literally a HIT) and my uncle is having way too much fun with them! They had so much fun with them, and i don't think i had more than 5 left over. I had well over a 120!


I have no words for this one but to giggle.

This one is not funny without knowing what happened just after this. Notice the articles of clothing on the ground. Unfortunately, this was someones home. this someone didn't want us to take pictures there and threatened to stab us. Yes, we got threatened on our wedding day!

This man felt we needed a little color in our pictures. seriously, he said that. he also gave me rocks as in a knuckle shake because he wouldn't shake our hands. he said he picks his nose. I'm glad for the rocks!

don't worry, no Tony's were hurt during this process......

This one is a before and after.......

Obviously, I am not a fan of jack and coke.
(I think it has to do with a run in with it from my younger days, lol)
Last but not least.....
Well, at least we had fun!

Wrong move, Amy!

I picked up Marley and Me and finished it last night after starting it this summer. I put it down when school started back up and thought i would pick it back up and finish it since i was almost done. Hey, I want to see the movie but refused to until i finished the damn book.

Wrong move......

hormones + sappy book about a dying dog = husband that doesn't know what to do with his sobbing wife.

Like i said, wrong move!