I survived!

I just got back home from my Epidural Steroid Injection, and I will first say, it wasn't AS bad as I thought it would be, but I will ALSO say that I hope to God I never have to do that again.

I walked in shaking like the last leaf on a tree.....if I had to stand up, my legs surely would have buckled. The doctor came in and put one of those lead aprons, and then he reminded me of a mass murder from some gory movie, (I'm thinking of Hostel) and smiled at me. 'How are you, he asks me. Um, can't you see my knees shaking? I lay on my stomach, and they poke me with the first needle to numb me up. OH SWEET JESUS! A little poke? After that i wanted to jump up and run away, but my husband went with me and i couldn't look like a wuss.

After the first poke, i swear they poked me 8,599,030,939 times more. If I drank some water, I think it would leak out like a fucking sprinkler. The shots that numbed me were by far the worst part. He said they would burn, but it felt like i was being stabbed in the bone, and then twisted. It was just so much fun.......

Then, I hear him and his assistant talking, saying they couldn't find a way to get to where the shot needed to go--which is in between the disc. I hear him say something to the affect of 'we're going to have to go more in depth' You are already putting a large needle in between my spinal cord, how much more invasive can you get?

FINALLY--the 'shot' comes. I hear it go in, 'ssssssshhhhssssss.' and it was over. He even showed me on the monitor where the injection went (they injected me with dye too so it was visable!)

He put a bandage the size of Texas on my neck, and I stumbled out to the waiting room where Blake was sitting. My back is still numbish, and its starting to wear off and i feel like i got stabbed in the back in a dark alley.

That was a blast, or not. Let's pray that this one works, and I don't have to go back for round number 2! If it works, I'm going to have a flipping party to celebrate! On a positive note, it can only make me feel better so the experience was worth it, and was another living experience i can check off the list of things I've accomplished (lol, I'm sure that isn't on anyone's list, but facing a fear would be!) I can't wait to be able to go back to the gym!