This is one of those posts that I have tried to write and I just stop. I know a lot of you have mentioned that I am always so positive after we have been through so much. How do I do it? To be honest, some it is out of pure denial. I have bad days. I have a lot of them and some days the only way to get through it was to focus on what good there is in life. To hug my baby a thousand times more that day. To run through the sprinklers or bike through nature.
To not sit idle and let life pass me by.
To me, it is the best way I can pay tribute to those I have lost.
The past six months have taught me more that a lifetime of lessons. Appreciate what you have. If you love someone, tell them. Life is short. Life matters more than things matter. I could go on.
After Matt died and then both of my grandmother's deaths, reality hit hard.
Life is short.
It can be taken away at any moment.
Love, embrace, and celebrate the time that you are here.
Then, my brother (Type 1) and dad (Type 2) were diagnosed with Diabetes. My life changed again. I made my family's health a priority (another post to come about that) and vowed to teach my son healthy eating habits. We started working out and eating in.
Then, last week a friend of mine was diagnosed with stage 2 Breast Cancer. I stopped in my tracks. She is relatively young, just got married last year and was hoping to get pregnant. Now a double mastectomy, chemo, radiation and egg storage will be in her future.
I got mad. Mad because all this awful, horrible, tragic stuff keeps happening to good people.
It's not fair.
Life is not fair but I already knew that. My once naive self told me that.
I put on my big girl pants, and I got back up. You can get knocked down again and again and get yourself back up.
I refuse to pout and refuse to let something I can't control take over.
I can be there. I can take action. We can take action!
So, each month, I'll be posting something in honor of Breast Cancer Awareness. I will be doing monthly exams, and hope you will too.
While you are at it, please send some prayers for her. It's going to be a long, hard road and she could use any extra prayers you have not used up from me already!