Thursday, March 25, 2010

Grandma Lolita

Grandma finally fought until she could not any longer. She passed away last Friday, quietly with her children by her sides. While we expected this, it's never makes it easier. It does make it easier to know she is in a good place, no longer sick, and back to herself again.
I love this picture (though it's hard to see) They got married when they were just kids. I think she was 15. She had my mom at 17. She had 6 kids, and loved them deeply. She was so proud of them. I don't think I understood her love for them until I became a mom myself. I know that love, and I never doubted it. Her 16 grandkids too, and her 3 great grandchildren too (and one on the way.)
A week before she died, I took Brady to see her, and she immediately perked up. Her face lite up. I am so grateful she got to meet my son.

Today, we said good-bye, and shared memories.
It has been a rough month. Tomorrow marks two occasions. My son turns five months old, and tomorrow marks a month without Matt. I think about them both everyday.
I envision them meeting up there, and sharing a smoke together. Maybe he'd get her diet soda that she loved so much. I sure hope so.


Emily said...

I'm sorry that you've had to experience another loss so soon. You're so right that knowing something is coming does not make the grief any less. I love that you imagine your loved ones together, happy, and at peace. I wish the same peace for you and your family.

N. said...

I'm so sorry for your loss, and for this difficult time you're going through, Amy.

Lisa said...

So sorry for your loss. She was beautiful.

Stephanie said...

So sorry for your loss. What a beautiful picture.