First of all, I have to greatly apologize for the typos/spelling errors in my last post! Sleep deprivation can do silly things to you!
The first day back wasn't too bad. The hardest part of my day is saying good-bye to him. The 2nd day was harder because when I got home on Monday he was asleep. He woke up shortly to eat and went right back to sleep. He didn't even want to stay up for his bath, and that is my favorite time with him (and he loves it!) He just kicks, laughs and smiles the whole time, and really shows his adorable personality. I felt like I did not see him. Mornings are 'our' time and he was still kind of sleepy on Tuesday.
Last night, I got home and he was snoozing and I was thinking of waking him but left to grab a humidifier since he has been so stuffy. I came back and he was eating and he looked up at me and smiled! It surely brightened my day! He stayed awake to play a bit and splash in the tub. Then, it was bedtime and he woke up at 1:30 to eat. I now don't mind getting up with him because it's more time with him, and time that I appreciate. If anything, going back to work has made me appreciate him and cherish this time in his life just that much more, and hold him just that much closer.
This morning was great! I got him dressed, fed him and we just cuddled. I feel so much better today knowing that I got that time in. I don't think it will every be easy to leave him.
I am contemplating moving to Canada where they get a YEAR OF MATERNITY LEAVE????? Who is with me?
This is where I really feel we fall short as a society. We do not value parenting as we should. I have always felt that way, as those that work with kids. Teacher, social workers (coming from a fellow social worker who constantly feels under appreciated, underpaid and overworked.) It's sad that those that care for and shape the minds of the young are not given credit where it is due.
I really have a new appreciation for moms everywhere but mostly working moms. We really do work hard for our money.
We work hard to juggle our careers, our homes, and our children.
We work hard to not think about the time we are missing with our child, and the firsts that we might miss.
We work hard to not miss them every second.
We work hard to get through the long commute so we can get home in time for those smiles that make it all worth it.
So, for me, please give your child an extra little hug tonight, and never take any moment for granted!