Monday, January 4, 2010

The end is here

Today is the day I have dreaded since I found out I was pregnant. As you read this, I am probably driving through rushhour traffic, answering a phone call, or unpacking my office (we moved while i was gone, lol.) all while thinking of my little man at home. Today, my maternity leave ends, and reality begins again. I am grateful for the time I have had with him but sad to return to the ins and outs of everyday life. The past two months really felt like a long weekend and like I was in a dream world. It's really all the way I can discribe it because it didn't feel like my life. Going back to work is reality and that is life....

I know I will cry more tears than he will but it doesn't make it any easier.

I don't think it really hit me until today when I found myself crying hysterically several times. I know he is in good hands (my mom is watching him most of this week, she took off!) but I'm a mom and my job is to worry!

I actually don't think tomorrow will be as bas as Tueday. Tuesday it will sink it this is real and I'm not staying home anymore. I have already told those that are watching him to never tell me something he did for the first time.

Now...pumping is going to be interesting tomorrow since we moved to a new office while I was on leave and I have no idea where I'm going to go. I was in a private office and now forced out into a CUBICLE! Oh my! :)

11 comments:

Jennelle said...

Good luck today, Amy! I hear you--the going back to work part is what scares me the most about when we're ready to have kids. :S

Sarah said...

I had a hard enough time going back to work today, and that was just after 11 days off, and with no baby - I can't imagine how hard it must be for you! Tears would be a'flowin from my eyes as well. Good thing he is safe and sound with your mom. Brady will be just fine! Hang in there, Amy... it'll get better!!

Katie said...

Amy, I can't imagine what you are going through. It must be so hard. I teared up just reading your post. I feel for you. I hope your day goes well.

Angie said...

Aw I'm so sorry girl. At least your mom is with him. Hopefully the day goes fast for ya. I'm not looking forard to that day either. BTW I mentioned you in my post today, check it out laters!

Melissa and Nick said...

Being a working mom is a difficult task! But you are a strong woman and you will be great at both! Good luck today...I promise, it does get better!

Mary said...

Good luck Amy! I hope you settle into a routine really quickly. Just think about projectile poo and barf and all the gross things Brady does;) I know that probably won't help, but it's a start.

Stuff Parents Need said...

In time you'll probably find that some days are easier than others, but every day is hard in some way. I was back at work for about 6 weeks, and then had 2 1/2 weeks off for the holidays, and now I'm back again. Today is a tough day for me, too. Hang in there.

LC said...

Oh Amy! GOOD LUCK!!! I'll be thinking of you.

a little twig birdhouse said...

I'm dreading the day next month I return to work. I hope it gets easier for you, yay that your mom is taking care of him!

Cecilia said...

:o( I hope you had a decent day. I had to go back after 4 weeks. It was so difficult. My hubby thought I was a big baby. I was fortunate though, because Daddy was taking care of the little one since we have opposite shifts.

Julia said...

ick. I hope it went well! I'm sure the first part of returning to work is the hardest...hang in there!