Scary.

It was a bit of a scary day today! Luckily, the baby is just fine. I was feeding him this morning when i got up and felt something wet. I looked down and my incision was bleeding. Then, it started gushing. Called my OB who told me to put a pad on it and call her back in a bit to see how much it was bleeding.

Turns out it started gushing everywhere. I mean crime scene kind of everywhere. We were in a panic because we didn't want to take the baby into the ER with all the sick people but no one lived close enough to get to us right away. On the way, we called Blake's mom who met us there and took him home.

Turns out I had a hematoma. It basically is a pocket of fluid that can build up and it needs to come out. Talk about not so much fun when they are poking and prodding in my incision. Meanwhile, i hear them say they haven't seen one this big, and this much blood in one. Awesome. At least, I am one that can surprise even ER docs. The whole time I am worrying about whether or not Brady is ok.

Then, they started talking blood transfusion and I freaked. I was thinking the worst....worrying about my little baby I could see it in Blake's eyes too! My platelet count was low but luckily not low enough to need a transfusion. I don't handle loosing blood well which is why I can't give blood (I pass out every time!) They want your count to be around 12-13 and mine was 8. At 6 they would do an infusion! So, it wasn't good, and not too bad. I was given strict instructions to not do a damn thing, and to see my OB first thing Monday morning!

The worst part is Blake told his mom to keep Brady overnight because he knew even if he took care of him, i would be up wondering if he is ok. I, on the other hand am not handling that very well. I know I need to get better, but to me, it's too soon to be away from him.

The good thing about all of this is I am hoping it is the reason why I am having issues with my milk production. I am producing more than I was previously, but not enough for Brady's big appetite (which means I have to supplement) Most likely, the fluid has been building up or a while and I hope it's the cause of this other issue!!!

Since I have been home, my fever went down (I have had a fever since I got home from hospital, my OB put me on antibiotics but nothing was working), and the swelling went down on my feet. Weird.

I hope I didn't freak anyone else out (i know a lot of you are prego now) but know that my luck is just unlike anyone else, I swear! I am just so frustrated at this point. All I want to do is cuddle with my squishy baby, and be able to feed him what he needs and I can't do either of those at this moment.