Thank you all for the encouragement and wonderful comments. It all really helps and the encouragement goes a long way. I hate being so negative but there is only so much a girl can take! I am doing much better and it seems that I am making progress!
The nurse came today said that she is almost sure that the hematoma is shrinking, which is good news! She comes in the AM to repack the area, and Blake has been trying to do it in the PM. This has been a new adventure in our marriage to say the least. I mean what husband gets to shove packing materials into an open hole in his wife's body and does it without complaining? The first time was a bit rough, and it's been hard for him to get the packing material into the hole but I am so proud of him for doing this...I don't know if I could do it in return. The fact that he even attempts is amazing to me! It's not our favorite thing to do but knowing I can heal quicker is the best incentive.
I go back to the dr. today, and I hope she agrees that it is healing. Knowing I am making progress is music to my ears and gives me hope that things will be okay soon!
Another good thing happened is that I was able to nurse Brady today! I don't know what I did differently but he nursed for a long time and I screamed for Blake to come see. He thought we were hurt or something because I was yelling so loudly for him to come! Hopefully, this is a new trend that stays. Maybe my body really is staring to heal....or maybe this was a fluke but either way it made my day.
We also took Brady out on his first outing this weekend. It was my in laws 44th anniversary so we went out to a laid back dinner. He slept the entire time so needless to say, he behaved well! :) It was good to get out even if it was only for a few hours! He had his first real bath last week too, and his little belly button finally fell off. I can't believe my baby is already 3 weeks old, and I have been on maternity leave going on my 4th week. It is half-way over and that makes me sad. I don't want it ever to end!!!!